I heed my own advice.

 Just sayin', get over yourself.

It's not about not caring

It isn't a hardened heart because I have great empathy for those less fortunate.

It isn't about how much I have for I have a sufficient amount and can live within my means.

It isn't about not caring, for I do care about the situations around the world and the people suffering.

The more clarity I have on life the less concern I have because I know I can weather the storms.  

It comes down to my circle of influence and my circle of concern.  My circle of concern is much larger that my circle of influence.  It's at the point where those 2 circles intersect is where I focus my abilities to assist.

When it's all of sudden

 When I reached an all of a sudden moment I had to realize that any changes I desire to make in me wasn't in that aha moment.  It was a culmination of events that finally got me to that point.  

Sometimes the desire to change is driven by negative circumstances (ok, a lot of the time) and then there are circumstances that just make me want to change how I think about myself.  We can live in the slurry of negativity or take the time to think what we think about ourselves and others.  

I feel like just changing how I think about myself in general will have a positive impact on my perceived self-worth, my character and how I view the world.  As I sit here and think about it, it reminds of what it was like being a little kid.  Shoveling the years of negativity and anxiety out of my mind creates new space for letting in the new thoughts.  

So it's only taken my X amount of years to get here.  I'm rather excited about what the future holds once again.

20 cents

 I'm still working on my own paradigms (pair of dimes - 20 cents).  I'm determined to live in the freedom in Jesus Christ and not be weighed down by Lucifer's incessant lies and deceptions.  

I will wake up daily and claim my freedom and remind myself throughout the day.

Out of the cave

 What a year it's been.  I just realized that I've posted nothing on the pandemic and thinking about it I'm glad I didn't.  It may have just added to the noise.

Life during shutdowns and social distancing seemed to be okay for the most part.  Like many of you reading this, our family felt the pain of losing a family member to COVID.  Sadly, I couldn't attend.

In this early spring it feels like the world (and me) are coming out of hibernation.  Warily sticking myself a bit further into the world.  We have been able to do many of the things we enjoyed pre-covid with only the addition of a mask and hand sanitizer wherever we go.

I've been taking this time to work on myself.  There are things about me that I don't like and I know others don't either.  I did three months with Shift Society with Julia Kristina (worth the money), Anger Management classes with the VA and bible study.  

I feel myself making the turn towards who I desire to be and am excited to ditch all the crap that I've believed about myself.  The biggest thing I've learned this year is that most of everything I have ever believed about myself were not and are not my original thoughts.  They were put on me by family, friends, workers, etc..  The things I do believe about me are some of those I want to change.  

I won't list everything I'm changing, but I will say that change is slow and it takes work.  It felt good to post again today.  I've been meaning to do it for weeks and will keep this a good habit.

If you are looking to make some changes, search YouTube for Julia Kristina.